In case you didn’t notice,

This is me reaching out to you with both hands, holding on to nothing else except the hope that you’ll glance at me with that way you used to look at me, those eyes that use to burn with desire are dull and lifeless now, the flirtatious smirk which grew slowly into a gleaming smile is wrinkled and haggard now.

I haven’t done much I’m proud of these last few days, but with the weight of the world on my shoulders, it’s hard for me to do much other than wait for you.  To be honest, I’m not sure what I’m waiting for anymore.  I’m huddled alone in the darkness with someone’s whisper convincing me that light will come, and my heart’s burden will be lifted.

I didn’t come here to beg for forgiveness, but I hope you’re willing to spare mercy on my mistakes.  I’m not perfect, and I’m sorry I made you believe I could be, even sorrier that I believed I could be.  All I can be is myself, with my flaws, my scars, and my broken soul.  Romance is nothing more than two broken people, looking for someone else to fix them.  I want to fix you, and I need you to fix me, I don’t know how this can happen, but something inside is telling me it’s possible, and it’s telling me to stay.

I don’t need you in my life, but I want you.  I don’t want to merely survive in this world, I want to live, and with you I feel alive.  Let’s run together, not away from our problems, but towards a bright future built upon our interwoven affection for one another.  I love you, and I know it’s not original but it’s sincere.  When I think about how much you mean to me, those are the only words that seem to fit.  So again, I love you.

”why can’t we just gather all the people in the world that we really like and just stay together, forever… But then someone leaves, someone always leaves. And then we have to say goodbye. I hate goodbyes.”